why alone…
I don’t know if anyone else has ever thought this way before but, sometimes don’t you feel like no one cares for you?
I have been playing the violin for 5 years and most kids only 3 so I am made fun of for being the class pet at school. I get A honor roll in advanced classes and I don’t talk much. In 7th grade this year, I think I was scarred for life, I can’t trust anyone for what they say. I have a low self-esteem and whatever my youth pastors say about me I just flick it away and tell myself “They’re just saying that because it’s they’re job.” My relationship with God is strong when I am not being attacked by Satan. But when he attacks I fall down on my knees and take in what he says.
I feel so alone that sometimes I just want to slam myself in my room and begin to cry. I can’t keep myself from thinking that I am alone in this world and people don’t care about me. Sometimes I wonder on thoughts mostly like “Why would someone like me?”
- I’m sensitive and a guy at the same time?
- To nerdy
- Barely talk
People tell me all the time that “God loves you, that’s all that matters,” “You have family and God,” or “He gave his life up for you what will you do?” I understand this at sometimes, that he is all that matters. But other times I tell myself he isn’t in human form so he really can’t help you. D♦♦n me, I mean how could I have thought somthing like that. Tonight for some reason, just tonight, nothing special happened, but I understand that he should be the only one that matters. If you have him in your life that is all that you need. God is AWESOME and he has surrounded you with people that love you, if you were like me and don’t trust that anyone could care for you, well that is wrong, sorry I don’t care if you are Bill Gates YOU ARE WRONG. I don’t know how many times someone has told me that I am amazing and that they love me. 2/3 of the times I flick it away. I leave it behind say thank you smile, then turn my head around and frown. If I am going to do that then well I will never live a good life.
Don’t ever feel like you are the only one their and that all the people surrounding you that care about you and want the best for you, are just blimps, and that they can’t help you. Because God has placed them their in your life and he has a plan for each one of them to come to you and help you with your life. Open up to them and let them help you.
...ideas from a teen... 